Mum, it’s alright if you die…

Death has been introduced to her when she was 4, when my grandmother died. She saw me cried my heart out. I was really down since I was miles away then I heard her say, “Stop crying now, mum. We’re going to the Philippines soon so you’ll see your mummy.” That was a very touching moment for me. Imagine those words coming out of a 4 year old’s mouth? And it was my child speaking! Before she said that, hubby was explaining to her what happened to Nanay Ba. He said that Nanay Ba is dead and now an angel in heaven.

A few days ago, my cheeky munchkin was watching Snow White when she said, “Look mum, Snow White looks like your mum (she meant, my grandma who I call Nanay). She’s also inside the glass box.” So our conversation went on.

“Anak, what if mummy dies?”

She immediately answered,  “Mum, it’s alright if you die.”

I asked why and she continued. “Because mum, if you die, you’ll be my angel.”

I said, “But is it alright if you can’t talk to me anymore?”

She responded, “Of course I can still talk to you. When I pray to Papa Jesus, I will also talk to you.”

And I just confirmed, “Yes, anak. You tell Papa Jesus whatever you want to tell mummy, ok?”

Her view about death is something I won’t change. I like it that she has this positive view about it, anyway it’s a reality. She isn’t afraid to die as well. She said she’ll become an angel if she dies and she needs to be good to become an angel.

As for her dad and I, we can only prepare her emotionally and financially by educating her about it as early as appropriate and saving up for her, purchasing life insurance, paying for our social security disability insurance – just in case something happened to us, she won’t find it too hard to carry on.

Children’s Trust

You know how kids imagine. For them, everything seems to be so possible and easy to achieve. I actually felt so bad when I have already put in her mind that we’re soon gonna move to the newly renovated flat just downstairs and because she can see the really huge background, she has already envisioned what will it be like when we move in. She already chose a particular spot on the backyard to put her playhouse to and because she’s really a park lover, she was visualizing her own playground where there’s a swing set like this that she have seen while I was browsing the CSN store.

Then just the other day when we inquired about the property – when will it be ready for occupancy and how much is the rent per month, our agent told us that it is already let. I told it t Alyssa and I can feel how sad she was. She said, “Aww!!! But mum, you said where’ moving downstairs?” Ofcourse all I can do to make her feel better is to divert her attention so I just said, “Never mind. Spring is coming soon and we’ll be going to the park often.” It’s funny how children forget about their worries when parents re-assure them of their happiness. They have complete trust on us and we, parents, need to learn how to keep our words to maintain that trust.

Nostalgia: My 2 Year Old

I don’t know how many times I’ve watched this video already, but I just don’t get tired watching it. This is one of my favorites because she sings whatever I ask her to sing and you can say how cute voice she has.

I so miss her when she was 2. That was the time when I can already communicate with her clearly as she can already talk. I was able to stop her from bottle feeding at that age as well by simply explaining that she’s already big enough for bottle and she agreed that same day – not going back to bottle feeding since then. She was potty trained at that age too. There are many memorable milestones she had at that age and I can’t help but try to recall them all now.

This is why we, parents always say, “Enjoy every moment, kids grow up so fast and we can’t get back to the days when they were still young.” In a matter of 2 weeks, Alyssa will be turning 5 and I can’t hold back the time. Little by little, she’s growing up to the person she needs to be and all I can do is watch her grow and be with her while she do.

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